I am so sorry for your loss. Though I don’t know you personally I understand the hole in our heart death leaves behind. A scripture that brought me light in my darkest times is Rev 21:4. “And he will wipe out every tear from their eyes, and death will be no more, neither will mourning nor outcry nor pain be anymore. The former things have passed away.” God has promised us that soon death will be no more and he will reunite you with your loved ones.